The first blog

It's New Years Day.
The day for everyone to get on the wagon and say "yes, this IS my year to lose weight!" only to then go and polish off that box of chocolate covered cherries left from Christmas. I know, but I am. I do have a box of chocolate covered cherries in the kitchen with about half remaining and screaming my name. Do I want to eat them? Yes. Am I going to? Well......maybe one.

I've become so bad at the whole self-discipline thing. Four years ago when I had my big weight loss, I was so focused and dedicated to dropping weight and looking good. It paid off....I was a hottie! I was also only 25.
Something I've learned in the last year or so is that the older you get, the places you gain weight change. I've got fat in places that I didn't know got fat! It's gross.

Here's my health problem excuse (we've all got at least one)....I have been diagnosed with PCOS. In saying that, let me tell you that according to yahoo health (and several other online sources) will agree that excessive weight gain in the abdomen area is common for PCOS sufferers. So there! I do have an excuse.
My second health problem excuse (yes, I get two.....it's my blog) is my blood sugar issues. My grandmother, father, cousin and brother are diabetic. So far I've not been diagnosed but I do show signs that it may be in my future. Not eating leaves me so shakey and sick.

When I lost the weight those years back, I starved myself and worked out religiously. In the matter of months, I was thin.
Today when I try that tactic, I end up a shaking mess. It's just not going to work that way this time.

I have to find a new approach.

I'm all for the running thing again, it worked last time. I went out and bought a new running outfit and everything. I'm such a girl....it's like I have to have that new outfit to begin working out when in all reality, it's just another excuse to why I haven't started working out. I mean, come on, I can't work out because I have nothing to run in?! I'm so dumb sometimes.

But my hubby took me to but a super cute running outfit so that I can start my workout.....now if I only had running shoes. KIDDING!

I set some mini goals there on the right....they are MINI goals because for me, small goals won't overwhelm me and seem unattainable. If I was honest about how much I wanted to lose and said that I wanted to lose all xx amount of weight it would seem impossible. Saying I want to lose 3 pounds in a month- that's doable. I think.

I'm flying solo through this journey so far...my husband has tried being my running partner in the past and that didn't work out very well. It caused me stress because I kept making it a competition and I always lost. I may eventually find a running buddy but until then I think I'll invest in an mp3 and go at it alone. I need to get some mace.