Doing the happy dance!

I lost a pound! I lost a pound! My measurements last night were less this time too! I know that I wasn't supposed to measure/weigh till later but I couldn't wait. I had to measure.

I weigh myself every night before I leave the gym. They have the "scientific" scale that is supposed to be uber accurate. Well, last night I was 166 and tonight I was 165. I'm back on my salads only lunch diet and Richie and I have put ourselves on strict "no eating out" diets. For financial reasons and weight issues.

The elliptical always makes me so uncomfortable and my personal goal is to be able to do my minimum of 5 miles of cardio (each night) on the the elliptical. I normally last about 3 minutes before bailing out in pain. I made it a half mile, or 7 minutes, tonight. So I was proud with that accomplishment!

I then hopped on the bike and did 4.5 miles , 0r 23 minutes. So I still did my 5 miles in 30 minutes tonight. Every night I work my abs, butt, thighs and arms. Since my leg "injury" I'm not able to do the treadmill anymore. We're still not sure what I did by the front on my shins are bloody sore. It's almost like I fractured a bone....but that just doesn't make sense.

I'm so motivated. I found out tonight that there is a cadio ballet class starting on Wednesdays in February in Herrin. It's $8 a class, so I may try that instead of yoga, or in addition. And just for my husband's clarification, taking yoga or cardio ballet does not take the place of the gym. I will continue the gym workouts. So there! :)

I'm my own drill sergeant

I have to be hard on myself to make myself get busy. I'm so tired of being fat. I can't breathe, I'm always tired and I have to hold my breath when I bend down to tie my shoes! I hate it.

I slacked on my diet....(hello, I made baked spaghetti and rolls for dinner!) and I skipped the gym for four days straight.

Today was our first weigh-in for The Biggest Loser at work. My team and I weighed in....and I was in at 166.7 pounds. So yeah, I've not gained or lost since I weighed the first of the month. I'm such a loser.

The advice of a dear friend was to go on a strict soup and salad diet for about 2 months to retrain myself on portion control. So I'm thinking about making that cabbage soup (it's a diet that went around a long time ago and it's actually very tasty) and going for salads and soup for a while. We'll see if I actually follow through with it.

Also, I'm going to look for a yoga class down here. I've heard great things about that. If you know of a place, let me know.

Long Time No Blog?

I've been consumed. I've been wasting my life away....I have a new addiction. It's called Fashion Wars and I play it on FaceBook. It's ridiculous but I just love to play.

So this diet thing sucks. I'm going to the gym (only skipped twice so far) and after weighing myself daily, I'm up a pound.
Granted, I didn't need Chinese buffet for dinner two nights in a row but it was there in my face and I have zero willpower to say no to food.
And, today was potluck at work and the taco dip and ham rolls were too delicious to just have one....again, no willpower.

The Biggest Loser contest at work does their weigh-in on Monday and our team (the ChunKeyers) has just got to win. I'm hoping that the competitive side of me kicks in and I kick some butt. I have to...I don't have a choice. Living with this much weight is just not an option for me.

I'm tired of being tired.

Oh, and my other distraction (aside from life wasting internet games) is that I am back in school. It's only one class, and it's an online class, but it's HARD. So a lot of my blogging time has been absorbed by that as well.

But taking this class is one step closer to that degree! I think I need some encouragement.....does anyone even read these? Roll call time!

We did it....

We joined the gym. I joined the Biggest Loser at work. We're showing signs that we're being serious this time.

We've been through two days of gym attendance and we're way sore but feeling good about it. I lost one pound in one day! Goooooo me!

I'm trying to keep my focus on my weight loss and it's so hard. I'm so weak sometimes and I just want to give up and be fat.

Life is just tough.

I'm fat.

I've been a bad, bad girl. Not only have I neglected my beloved blog for a few days, but I've neglected my diet as well. I'm a loser, baby! Wish I couldn't say that I didn't care but I do so much. It makes me sad to fail...but I guess I didn't care enough otherwise I'd have done better.

Since starting this "diet" I've not worked out one single time. The only thing I've done to even resemble trying to get in shape is buy the outfit. How lame!

Well today marks a new start. Richie and I took a mental day today and got signed up at the local gym. We know how we can be and only contracted for three months to see if we'll actually stick to it. Richie is on a weight loss mission too. I told him that I'd be weighing him and putting his measurements on my blog and he freaked out. We'll see what happens with that....I'd be looking for his stats here soon. :)

I went to the grocery last night and bought lots of healthy foods to eat for lunch. I'm hoping that helps make a difference. God knows that the Chinese buffet that I had tonight won't contribute to the losing weight.

G'night.

Saturday Reporting

Dang, only a few days in and I'm a slacker.

I didn't log my food intake today because I was just too busy. So let me see if I can think of everything off the top of my head....
Breakfast:
Cup of Coffee
Peppermint Creamer
Sugar

Lunch:
Bowl of potato soup (homemade and soooooo yummy!)
Half a bowl of chili (homemade and soooooo yummy!)

Dinner:
Appetizers at Sarah's (chips and salsa and wings)

Who knows what the nutritional aspect of all of that soup and chili would be....I don't even have a clue but I do know that it was worth every calorie! The potato soup is my grandma's recipe and it's so freakin' delicious. I've been craving it for about three years and finally took the time to make it. It was worth the wait.

I didn't run today. But I had an excuse why.....I had to clean and cook and paint. Yeah....I was really busy. Couldn't even fit in a 30 minute run! I'm so lazy.

Another excuse that I'd been throwing around the last couple of days is that I didn't have my mp3 loaded with "running songs." I kid you not, this was an excuse that I used to myself for not running. I said to myself "self, you can't go running with no music, that would be dumb" so I didn't go running. Now, I have the music all loaded and ready.

While I'm tattling I guess I'll tell you my other lame excuse for being a lazy butt....I told myself that I didn't have to run or work out because I set my goal so low that I have the whole month to get the 3 pounds off...so I can slack until the last week and then fret to meet the goal.

I'm so pathetic. Grrr. Sometimes I made myself so mad. In hindsight I see how stupid I am but when I'm in the moment, I'm all about the stupid excuses.

Tonight we were at Sarah's house (our soon to be sister in law, hehe!) having game night with some friends. The TV was on in the background and this infomercial came on for the bender ball.

I need this. I think it would work so perfectly! I mean, I have an ab roller and using that is how I got so toned the last time I had big time weight loss but this ball may be even better. I'm going to look into getting one. The ab roller is stored somewhere in the garage....I haven't used it since starting this weight loss kick either. I mean, I've asked Richie to go and get it for me but he still hasn't (excuse alert). Also, our house has wood floors throughout. No carpet anywhere (and we hate it) so I'm going to have to make a makeshift pad or buy a workout mat to start using my ab roller too (excuse alert). Man, I just need to give it up!

I'm going to bed....I'm excused out tonight!

Did I mention that I would sometimes fail?

I was doing semi-good yesterday with my eating...until last night.

We decided last night to go and see Benjamin Button. (Terrible movie, by the way) As I always do when I go to the theater, I proceeded to stuff the horrible-for-you popcorn in my face. I totally over-ate on that stuff. I always do.

So today I'm beating myself up for not having the will power to say no to the popcorn. Guess I'll have to write the theater out of any upcoming plans!

Today is a new day.

BMI calculator

Well isn't that just lovely!

I went to: http://www.bcm.edu/cnrc/caloriesneed.htm just to see what what my BMI would be and to get a good idea about where my calories, fat and carb intake should be daily. So I input my information and find out that I'm overweight.
I mean, I knew that I needed to lose weight but I've *never* been considered overweight! Seeing it there in my face was a rude awakening.

My BMI is 27.1 and under 25 is a healthy weight. Over 30 is obese. Right in the middle.

Maybe I should try out anorexia for a few months. :(

When I did some research with the USDA website, I noticed that I eat a lot of grains and no milk or vegs so that is where I think I'll start to work.

Food Diary 1/2/08

When you actually have to write down everything that you put into your mouth throughout the day (get your mind out of the gutter!), it really makes you start to think before having that little snack.
Keeping track of the nutritional aspect of those things that do end up in the tum tum makes me really cringe.

I am going to try to keep up a daily food diary on this blog to help keep track of what I'm eating and where I need to cut. So for today:

Breakfast:
Cup of coffee (? Nutritional info)
1 tbsp peppermint creamer: 35 calories, 1.5 g fat, 6 carbs
1 tbsp sugar (? Nutritional info)
2 pieces of bacon: 90 calories, 7 g fat, 0 carbs
1 banana (? Nutritional info)
Water

Lunch:
2 corndogs: 440 calories, 24 g fat, 44 carbs (yikes! Won't be eating this again!)
1 ketchup packet (? Nutritional info)
fruit gel cup: 70 calories, 0 fat, 17 carbs
Water

As I mentioned in my first post about my health disclaimer, not eating enough gives me severe shakes and makes me feel like crap and makes me really crabby.
When I got home from work after eating the above, I was shaking like mad and crabbier than ever. I knew I needed a sugar boost. So, I had:

1 piece of bread: 70 calories, 1 g fat, 14 carbs
1 tbsp peach jelly: 50 calories, 0 fat, 11 carbs

Dinner:
1 bun: 120 calories, 1.5 g fat, 23 carbs
manwich (estimated): 40 calories, 0 fat, 9 carbs
tots: 150 calories, 7 g fat, 20 carbs

That's as far as I've gotten today. I'll update later after my night time snack. So far, I think it's looking like I need to cut carbs. Wow. I had no idea I was eating so poorly.

The first blog

It's New Years Day.
The day for everyone to get on the wagon and say "yes, this IS my year to lose weight!" only to then go and polish off that box of chocolate covered cherries left from Christmas. I know, but I am. I do have a box of chocolate covered cherries in the kitchen with about half remaining and screaming my name. Do I want to eat them? Yes. Am I going to? Well......maybe one.

I've become so bad at the whole self-discipline thing. Four years ago when I had my big weight loss, I was so focused and dedicated to dropping weight and looking good. It paid off....I was a hottie! I was also only 25.
Something I've learned in the last year or so is that the older you get, the places you gain weight change. I've got fat in places that I didn't know got fat! It's gross.

Here's my health problem excuse (we've all got at least one)....I have been diagnosed with PCOS. In saying that, let me tell you that according to yahoo health (and several other online sources) will agree that excessive weight gain in the abdomen area is common for PCOS sufferers. So there! I do have an excuse.
My second health problem excuse (yes, I get two.....it's my blog) is my blood sugar issues. My grandmother, father, cousin and brother are diabetic. So far I've not been diagnosed but I do show signs that it may be in my future. Not eating leaves me so shakey and sick.

When I lost the weight those years back, I starved myself and worked out religiously. In the matter of months, I was thin.
Today when I try that tactic, I end up a shaking mess. It's just not going to work that way this time.

I have to find a new approach.

I'm all for the running thing again, it worked last time. I went out and bought a new running outfit and everything. I'm such a girl....it's like I have to have that new outfit to begin working out when in all reality, it's just another excuse to why I haven't started working out. I mean, come on, I can't work out because I have nothing to run in?! I'm so dumb sometimes.

But my hubby took me to but a super cute running outfit so that I can start my workout.....now if I only had running shoes. KIDDING!

I set some mini goals there on the right....they are MINI goals because for me, small goals won't overwhelm me and seem unattainable. If I was honest about how much I wanted to lose and said that I wanted to lose all xx amount of weight it would seem impossible. Saying I want to lose 3 pounds in a month- that's doable. I think.

I'm flying solo through this journey so far...my husband has tried being my running partner in the past and that didn't work out very well. It caused me stress because I kept making it a competition and I always lost. I may eventually find a running buddy but until then I think I'll invest in an mp3 and go at it alone. I need to get some mace.